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Long time, no update. Sorry, Ms. Anita! :o) Soooo things have been crazy lately, as usual. Here are a few things that have been going on/floating through my head.

1. It's finally time to apply to nursing school. I've known it was coming for a while, but it's here and I'm definitely not very confident about it. More than likely, I'm not going to get in. I'm not being overly negative, I'm just being realistic. So, this poses a problem. I only have three prerequisites/core classes that I have to get out of the way. It'll give me enough hours to be a full time student for one semester (granted I can get in the classes before they're full), but after that I don't know what to do. I have a few options. I could take twelve hours worth of classes that I don't need and would not benefit me at all just for the sake of keeping insurance. Or I could get a minor in religious studies. I actually would like to do that anyway, but that's also a problem because Auburn only offers a few classes each semester in that area. My third option (which I wouldn't mind at all) is to just take a semester off. It would be spring semester, and I could work or something. I wouldn't be totally lazy... I dunno. I guess we'll just have to take it as it comes. I might even get into nursing school and not have to worry about it. Who knows.

2. I've gone through a lot of spiritual changes lately. As I've already shared, I've just been on a rollercoaster. Well, I think God got tired of my spiritual complacency because I've definitely been hit really hard this week. Really really hard. Okay, that's still an understatement. I've been forced to put my entire trust in God rather than people because once again, people are being taken out of my life. And this time it wasn't expected like it has been in the past. It's so frustrating because I already have a VERY hard time trusting people and opening up to them. Words mean absolutely nothing to me. I've heard words all my life and there were rarely actions to back those words up. When someone tells me they're going to do something with me, I automatically disregard it and tell myself it's not going to happen because 95% of the time, it doesn't. I know it's a problem, I guess it's just a defense mechanism I've developed. I'm very cautious about getting close to people. If I'm just going to lose them, what's the point? Yet I still do it. And I'm sincerely glad I do it. As hard as it is for me to do, I know I need to trust people. However, I don't need to put all my trust in people instead of God. I depend on people far too much and I often base my happiness on it. That's been taken away, so I have no choice but to acknowledge Him. He's all I need, and I often forget that when I'm focused on earthly things. He's the only one I can ALWAYS depend on. He'll never leave me, he'll never fail me. As hard as these situations have been to deal with, God's humbled me so much, and he's definitely gotten my attention. Man, He's so awesome.

3. I'm moving to Prattville. No, really, it's definitely one of my top options for what I want to do after college. I've been up there every weekend for the past month for Chrysalis flights, team meetings, board meetings, Cotillion, and church. It's honestly the only place I feel like I fit in. I feel like I'm at home. First of all, there's the people. I feel like they're sincerely glad to see me, and they definitely show it. It's so overwhelming to feel so valued and loved. Pretty much all of my friends are from Prattville. I have friends here in Auburn too...but they're from Prattville. :o) I went to a dance (Cotillion) last weekend I honestly had more fun there than I had at any of my high school dances. Oh, by the way, check out the PICTURES! I also love Prattville FUMC. I never really felt like I fit in with my youth group at home. I completely click with their youth group (and church altogether) and I'm not even a member. Then, of course, there's Chrysalis. I'm never going to stop going, so it would be nice to just drive a few minutes to the camp instead of the 1.5-2 hours it takes me from Auburn or Valley. I haven't decided anything for sure, and I've still got plenty of time. But this option is at the top of my list.

Well, those are the basics of what's going on in the life of Halley right now. Spring break is coming up soon, so it will be very nice to get a break. I can't wait! So until my next update, God bless.